It's Been 7 Years. ♥

BLOGGING HIATUS at a break once again. i seriously am sorry dear Wimpy. i've been neglecting you too much already. it just isn't right anymore. but my life has been a mix of . . well . . alot!

this is what i can say for now though. right now i am truly very very happy! i haven't felt this way in a while. not just a while. more like 7 freaking years. yes. this time i can feel as though almost everything is perfect. everything is falling into place.

and now. well. i want to thank YOU. yes. You. *sigh*

i'm seriously at a loss for words. -_-

Today - A Year Ago

WOW. today makes it officially a year when i said 'i was living a dream', as i think what transpired on this date a year ago it's amazing how i can probably retrace EVERYTHING that happened. from morning till night.

i know exactly what i was wearing, what i brought with me, what accessories i had on, who i contacted and who i talked to. i even remember the exact amount of money i had that day. YES thats how much details i remember from that day. and i also remembered texting a friend everything i felt during those times, i also remembered how he told me to just 'enjoy' the moment. 

this day was memorable for me. more special than not. and as i look back on it now, i can honestly say WOW, i almost forgot about that. as for the reason as to why this day was special? well, i'll just say thank you. i won't say why or how, but in a way you made me different. so yeah.. THANKS. :)

*update* - My Dream Day 5.14.11

i won't be talking about much. simply just pixies updates since i'm listening to Switchfoot right now and i haz only their songs in mind.. hahaha :) enihu. it started May 15 @ around lunch time when i met up w. a friend from manila. she invited me to hang out w. them and heres where the pictures start..

(the girl who made it possible for me.. ^^, muchos gracias dear Lora)

(at the mall along w/ the rest of the ezzy's accompanying Sherwin look for clothes :P)

Afterwards went to Kaye's crib to hang before some of the ezzy's leave for manila. :(

(w/ the gang. i love this! :D)
l-r: T: Lora, Me, Rorie, Chiean. B: Krix, Carol, Ash, Jannel
and of course last but most definitely not the least our prince. Kc Cal or Karchie as i like to call him. 

(Kaye Cal & Lora looking cute w/ those expressions)

(thanks mucho for the chocolates and is that coke your carrying Kaj?
haha at ang sama nang tingin ni Kaj. lol)

(bond . chikka . and apparently laugh trip w/ them :D )

(my kulit pic w/ Kaj while she's talking on the phone w. someone :P)

(couldn't help but take this pic.. haha)

after the bond session w/ Kaj we went to Croc Park thanks tito Jerry for the ride.  ^_^ got to sneak in Chiean & Lora for free. hahaha went out back. shhhh ;P I wasn't able to take much pictures @ the park but Rorie took a video. just clicky the linky.. i hope it shows. :)

After the park me, Chie & Lora went to ahead to Baby Miggy's B-day party. :)) surprise, surprise. Kaj was there. :) the usual chikka, ate a spidey man cake i think (lmao), then nagsi datingan na ang more of the ezzy's from here in DC. and WOW. they were prolly some of the funnest and most kulit people you will every meet! haha

(i first met cutie Ayyah who was seriously funny)





(a group shot taken later that night. i sooo love this pic. :))

met up again w/ Karchie and the rest of the gang to a bar downtown.  apparently Karchie's buds was going to play.  and guess who they were? drum roll puhleeease! dun dun duuuuun


(yeap! thats Dave, Igi & Emman of the now very popular SKEIGHTS band)

so yeah. thats how my Dream Day went on. :) i still could not believe how much F-U-N i had that day! :)

i soooo wish i could have more of that! :))
 enihu, till next time.

Arrivaderci!

  

*SOB*

*sigh* alam mo? grabe ka bah. grabe kayo. your making things really hard for me to handle. never in my wildest dreams did i ever think that i'd have problems concerning this. ayokong isipin na magiging issue ito but it is. and you know what the worst part of it is? it's that i have no-one to talk to about it. kung meron man matakot rin akong mag open-up. God knows how this'll end. and i'm absolutely clueless as to how to even start it.

try as i may to work this out? try as i may to even handle this dilemma? but i am breaking apart at the prospect of confirming this. this is mainly because i am scared to death about the situation. i am absolutely positively terrified of this. ayokong isipin na totoo to.

somebody. anybody. help?

Trying To Fight It

i really really am. but it's getting harder and harder. i do NOT want it to be like this. at least i don't think so.

i'm trying oh so hard to fight this cause i know, or at least i fear of the things that i might hear after.

it's really frustrating! so frustrating sarap e iyak!

i have two choices here.. either SUCK IT UP and continue being in this state or come right out and face this and see what happens.. HAAAALP!

Welcoming Committee

hey dudes and dudettes. i'd like to welcome my 

cute fun sweet and giggly

friend MAVIE to ze blog world.

go click the linky below! :D

>>CLICK ME<<

(welcome to blogger atleast since i know for a fact that she blogged on multiply before.. :D) sooo enihu. yeah! . check out her page! go! NOW! git! OR ELSE 

 

hahaha

kidding. :)

she's really cute guys and uber friendly i assure you that .. haha

again... Welcome to the world of random blogging my dear Mabiebee.. enjoy!

Un-Updated Journ :(

Ghaaad.. I am seriously trying to catch up on my mobi-journal here.. I'va gone 4 freakin months w/o updating it due unfortunately to freking procrastination. (yes, i procrastinated for 4 months when it came to me updatin my journal. Huuu

and now i have been trying to retrace my steps. Seriously. Imagine trying to remember the things that you did 4 freaking months ago!!! waaah.. KMN?! Please!?! Haha i was able to cope w/ the help of my inbox.. It's a good thing that i too was procrastinating when it came to cleaning up my messages.. I had no choice now since my already giving up phone is going berserk w/ so little memory available for storage.. Lmao

see how much DT's i managed?! Haha and i am again DT-ing. Haha i'm supposed to be updating!!! Ghaaad i'm a mess.. (but my room isn't)wee got some cleaning done in my room and i'm super happy about it.. :) enihu i have to go back to whatever it was i was supposed to do.. Lol

k.bye

oh and PS. If you guys find typos and such here please bear w/ me.. Its not really easy blogging on an itouch.. Freaking hard.. Yah so okay.. Lol

Blogging Hiatus Over?

hey dearies. so as the title states. basing on the two consecutive entries (plus this one) i have a feeling that my Blogging Hiatus is Over. for the meantime at least. :D for some reason i have this need to rant alot lately. and it's not just venting's, it could be about absolutely anything. and i like it! i miss being able to write on thy e-Wimpy. (nyahaha) okay that sounded adorable. lol

enihu. my dears. do prepare yourselves for numerous random to heartfelt entries cause i have a feeling i'm going to make a racket of my wall soon.. teehee

as for now. i'll end this disclaimer-like post w/ the usual

Arrivaderci.

XD

Misunderstood

often times i hear judgments made about me, about who i am, how i behave and for some f*cked up reason, even about how i feel. i really just let these things pass. in on one ear out the other?. .  yeah. and apparently now i hear another of these "comments" made.

But, there are times that these wise-cracks get to me. there are those dictum's every once in a while that really bother me. now i won't specify what those were. and who said them. but to the one who made that comment? . .

here's my two cents for you:

you have the right to say stuff. you have the right to your opinion. you have the right to think certain things. BUT once you hurt someone w/ it? whether it be direct or not? that's the time you need to stop and think about what comes out of your mind. about what you say and what is being heard by others especially if you're backstabbing them. cause you know what? that person (in this case me) may be smiling on the outside? but really? . . .

in my mind i am conjuring up millions of ways to murder you. (of course i wouldn't really. but the thought of it is enough to make me smile). i may look like a sweet-heart on the outside but you have no idea what i really am.

Euphoric

euphoria mode. :) hey wimpy! okay so forgive thy wimpy if i won't be making any sense w/ this post.. lmao. i am surrounded by crazies right now.. LOL i am about to lose my freakin' mind! :)) hahaha but it kinda reminds me of high school being in an internet cafe w/ my dear old HS buddies. LOL i freakin' love it! haha

okay so i really feel like i'm not making any sense right now. WTF?!??! hahaha all i can hear is them screaming! LOL

cliché : (my first try) I Promise To

INTRO: teehee so i often get irritated w/ all the cliché's thrown around. especially ones that are used w/  love stuff. baha! soooo i'll either react, diss, agree or cheezify it more. depends on my mood. LOL so for the first shot here goes. :)

cliché: "I Promise to Love You FOREVER"

*shivers* ghad! if i weren't such a hopeless romantic I might actually have had a micro-hurl! but unfortunately I'm in a bit of a good mood. so I'd have to go w/ CHEEZIFYING it more! lol get your tummy's ready! *drumroll*

I can't promise to love you forever. i won't live that long. but i will try to love you for as long as i could

oh ghad! haha did you feel that?! i have freakin' goosebumps! lol let me be! haha this post is to make up for the long post-less moments. haha huggy

Arrivaderci

Temper

apologies.apologies.apologies

so sorry for the mood guys. but lately i have the tendency to cry all of a sudden. i don't like it! seriously. i feel so vulnerable. sighs

for earlier. sorry about that. di kinaya nang powers ko. haha nag mukha tuloy akong tanga. but salamat sa pagpatawa.. hihi 

BTW

i haven't posted in a while. and this post doesn't make up for the ones missed. i seriously have TONS to tell. this month has been a mix of hundreds of experiences for me. i'll really try to share.. ;)

huggies!

. . Still Thank You guys

on a B-R-I-G-H-T-E-R note!

despite the mood mayhem. this day was GREAT! met TONS of new people! and YES. a couple of those i now consider friends! :)) huggy to those said people! :) of course special mention to Lianne who was my buddy along w/ Clint.during the trip. :) also to the group of truly fun dudes who we got to hang out w. ;)

truly a F-U-N experience. :)) BV's aside.. hahaha *wink* i sincerely hope to hang w/ you guys again soon! :)) 

CHIPS-BOAT-CHIKKA-SAGGING-CARDS-BOTTLE-MIC-BEEVEE'S-FUN

M•I•X•E•D.E•M•O•T•I•O•N•S

huggies

S.T.F.U

i don't care what you think. in fact. i don't really care what ANY of you think of me. bakit? kay i know what i'm doing. i know what possible reactions, judgments, accusations and condemnations are there in exchange for acting such a way. ALAM KO YON! OO, i know! di naman kasi ako tanga. at sige, maging redundant na tayo. I'm Not Stupid. Di Ako Tanga. Dili ko Bugok!

i know people can't help but judge. i know kay i myself do that. SO. it means na AWARE ako that i may and will be judged with what i am, was & WILL BE doing.. capice? i know your appalled by the thought of me still doing things which may get me judged and criticized by other people. but thats cause I DON'T CARE what any of you think. long as i know i'm not doing anything wrong.


kaya wag nyong ipag pilitan na tama kayo at ako ang mali kay i chose to be that way. thats how i chose to look at things. and i don't give a friggin' damn what anyone thinks. how sweet of you naman kasi na you would be oh-so affected by the gesture. so f*cking sweet that you were even more affected than me!?! imagine that?! haha but sige. given na   *mocking* "i was wrong" *mocking* THAT WASN'T THE POINT!!!


at kung hindi ka ba naman pinanganak na nuknukan nang sang-katutak na katangahan YOU WOULD GET THAT! i didn't care about what you "thought" (wala akong paki sa opinion mo). i also don't care if in anong condition ka nun o what. kay YOU HAD NO RIGHT. again, NO RIGHT, to talk to me that way. wala koy paki sa 'point' na imung gina palabas kay FYI? i understood it completely! it was the way you delivered it na kaloko kaayo. puhtek. mura kag naka sturya ug batang walay buot what with the way you spoke eh. parang all high and mighty ka kung umasta.. tsk tsk tsk


enihu. whats done is done. but of course i'm not a saint to forgive and much more forget that easily. i don't take things like that lightly. so if your sensitive enough. alam mo na.. okay?! still. the "concern" is still in mind. 

Time to Go Crazy

Deep Breath. . . . *phew*

okay so this week alone i am fully booked.

• Recollection (Re-ed)
• Report (Re-ed)
• Hand-out (Health)
• Follow-up Guests (MC)
• Look For Outfit (MC)
• Set-Up (MC)
• Field Trip (NS)
• Short Story (Eng)
• Oratorical Piece (Eng)
• H-W (NS)
• Usherette Duties (MC)
• Technical Duties (MC)
• Anniv?

hahaha this is going to be F-U-N! 

Free Hugs

Hey guys! so it's currently 2:33am on my clock and yet i am still wide awake. started dozing off when i came up w/ a perfect Valentines Day treat! w/c is what's indicated on the image above. :) sooo happy! :)

HUUUUUGS!

Minimal Efforts in Vain

not to rain on you guys' parade or anything? i mean the thought of the cause your trying to achieve is sort of appreciated. but if you guys really want to make an impact. don't do this on a day where it's actually allowed or permitted to wear anything freely (okay dami din restrictions w/ our dress-code w/c i think is OA but you guys know what i mean lmao) then you really aren't making a statement. trust me when i say IT WILL NOT MAKE A DIFFERENCE.

if you really want to make a statement? you really want to be heard? you actually want to get their attention? guys. you should know what to do!

do these efforts on regular days. non-wash-days. you get what I'm trying to say?! the only way they'll know your serious is if it makes an impact, ergo, it actually requires effort & sacrifice! think about it. try to picture it out. you do your plan on a Monday or any other day of the week where your required to wear your uniforms and show up w/ that. here.

NO UNIFORM -> NO ENTRY -> YOU STAY OUTSIDE -> MORE OF YOU SHOW UP -> SAME PROCESS = GETTING THEIR ATTENTION.

see my point?

pero guys, seriously. isipin nyo pa gud. is it really worth it? anjan na eh. it will happen. it's not just 'proposed' anymore kay it will very soon be regulated . so kahit anong gawin pa natin to try to change their minds. it wont make any difference. you'll be heard YES. pero hanggang dun lang. walang action na mangyayari. at least not the one you want to happen. hindi yung goal na you want to achieve. di naman din kasi tayo mga aktibista. we'd look like fools trying to change something thats final.

again. the thought of the cause is good. its touching or whatever. but it's there. it's done. it's FINAL. i know settler masyado ang labas ko nito and i admit i am settling. but it's only because this is a LOST CAUSE. it won't change. only thing we CAN do is accept it and try to cope w/ this change. 

teehee. BOW

(BTW: this is posted on both my Tumblr & here)

Arrivaderci

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(EDITED 11:16am)


will be posting a follow-up of this.. 

Leap?

should i?

tagal2x  na rin na I've been keeping my guards up. tagal na since i last opened myself up completely and let someone in my life w/o being cautious. thats cause last time i did so was about 6 yrs ago. 6 very long years of not letting someone get too near me w/o me trying to push them away, or if not. build a wall or make things clear that i don't want anything like 'that' to develop.

as for the reason to why i did that. . well, honestly i don't know anymore. all i know is that for years this has been my intuitive reaction once i feel something brewing w/ s certain someone. (no wonder! lmao)

so point is. should i? i mean should i give someone a pass? sometimes i feel like i should. and just as i'm about to. i close off again. 

A Letter To You My Heart

"dear, as i look back on the things that you did for me. all the sacrifices you made just to please me. you did everything to make ME happy. not once were you selfish. you always put my happiness ahead of yours. 


i wasn't able to thank you and show you just how much i appreciated it. you showed and did things that i wasn't sure were right then. but remembering them now. I'm awed by how precious you were.

thank you dear for letting me feel and for showing me how a lady should be treated. when we were together you made it seem like i was the only person who existed. like nothing and no one else mattered, only me. till now no one has come even close to surpassing how special you made me feel. i wouldn't have asked for anything more.

i know i didn't say this much before cause i was being selfish and stupid.i also had my guards up then.but just know that i might not have said it out loud that often. but in my mind i did - i did for countless times. and i know that this may just be nothing now. 


. . but 


. . . well, I LOVED YOU. and to make up for the me from back then let me just say i love you . i love you . i love you . i love you . i love you . i love you .


i loved you so so much.
 
i miss you dear. "

A Few Years Too Late :(

*sigh*

crazy how after all these years I'd still come to think of you. what exactly did you do that made me so into you? what did you do that after all the time that went by I'd still end up wanting to go back to when it was us. i guess it was because you never really made me feel like i needed something else. you gave everything. and though we had our issues, it was always you who - not had to but wanted to - make adjustments and sacrifices. 

i denied ever having to feel anything remotely close to love with you coz' i was afraid of giving in, i guess. i was afraid of finally admitting that the one person i convinced and told myself that i wouldn't and didn't take seriously was THE one person who actually made me realize that i was. i was afraid to admit that you had such an impact on my life. so i tried my best then to mask how i felt.

i was such a pain to you. and yet you ALWAYS compromised. you understood and you forgave even if I DIDN'T. you didn't make me feel like i had to explain and that i had to say sorry even though deep down i knew i was at fault.

i took for granted the things you did when you did. but at the end of the day, just before i sleep. i knew how blessed i was to have someone like you. you didn't know this cause i never really got the chance to tell you.  and to make you feel it. we never really had the chance to get together after. but i really want you to know. 

. . . I'll say I LOVE YOU somehow

:( "You Took My Place" :(

This should wake us up.

One day, a man went to visit a church, He got there early, parked his car and got out. Another car pulled up near the driver got out and said,

" I always park there! You took my place!"

The visitor went inside for Sunday School, found an empty seat and sat down A young lady from the church approached him and stated, "That's my seat! You took my place!" The visitor was somewhat distressed by this rude welcome, but said nothing.

After Sunday School, the visitor went into the sanctuary and sat down. Another member walked up to him and said, "That's where I always sit! You took my place!" The visitor was even more troubled by this treatment, but still He said nothing.

Later as the congregation was praying for Christ to dwell among them, the visitor stood up, and his appearance began to change. Horrible scars became visible on his hands and on his sandaled feet. Someone from the congregation noticed him and called out, "What happened to you?" The visitor replied, as his hat became a crown of thorns, and a tear fell from his eye, "I took your place.."

wow, so i was right not to read this when my sister told me to. else i would've been right when i told her that i'll cry. this gave me the bumps. if this doesn't get you, me, US thinking i don't know what will. T_T

Keep Smiling (^^,)

what the fudge?!? OKAY. so before i thought my friends were absolutely NUTS whenever they said that when they see their crushes smile, it makes their ♥ hearts ♥ stop. others say that it makes them hold their breaths or something.. i now know how true that is. how true EVERYTHING is! *sorry friends*

i mean seriously! i played that part of the clip for more than a dozen times already and each time i see that ♪ smile ♪ i feel like my heart stops. literally! gahd! this is scary. :) no one could be that adorable right?! haha sheeesh. well, earth to barbie. you just found one that is. *sighs*

okay barbs take a breather! (inhales  . . . . PHEW)

. . gaaaaah! it didn't work!!! O.O (me clicks one of the tabs and guess what me is doing? . .  *sigh*)

. . okay i'm back. eeeeeeeeeeppp  it is just so so so adorable! 

i swear when that part of the clip plays (among the many other part where that gorgeous smile shows) i freakin' swear that i hold my breath for a good 5 or so secs. sighs!

i've seriously got to get a hold of myself! enough girlie! sheeesh! hahahaha

i'll just give in to my new found drug if i may call it.. ;) i can't get enough of that de-lish-ous smile! :) and those eyes . . . swoooon dont even get me started! haha 

In Deep Thought

it was only a few days ago when i noticed that I've developed this some kind of habit or mannerism of some sort where i "leave" the real world for a minute or two. you would know that i was doing what i was doing cause my face would look blank or like i'm staring into space or something.

i have no idea when this started but i do this "quirk" more often these past few weeks. i know when i'm doing it cause i have tons of things in mind. other times it happens and my mind goes blank. it's really unnerving at times since i don't really know what i'm thinking. i mean i don't have any thought in particular whenever that happens.

this little fact isn't really a big deal. i don't really care much about it. but lately i keep hearing that i look sad, i hardly smile, i look like i'm about to cry, teary eyed and etc. thats what bothers me. i don't want to come across as a lonely person. i want people to see m as a wacky, crazy, kooky nut that makes people laugh. not makes people sad..

*sigh* what to do, what to do *sigh*

Reactionista ;D

"the only people you need in your life are the ones that prove they need you in theirs"

i kind of agree to this. well, okay, i don't know what i think. how i feel. and how i should react w/ this line. but i think it is sort of, well, okay really logical. i mean why give importance to people who don't give a damn. lol

"sometime we just don't want to talk, don't take it too personally."

hahaha! this is so freakin' true. LOL i mean seriously. take a hint. did you ever consider that the person isn't in the mood? or maybe the person just needs some time off? haha hey. you be sensitive enough. ;)

more reactions later.. LOL

Arrivaderci

;)

The Price I Have to Pay

tsk tsk tsk

this is the price i have to pay for wanting to play the guitar. my fingers are gross now. seriously! the fingers on my lefty are uber thickly calloused. :( now how the heck am i going to hold hands w/ whomever now? LOL but seriously, kidding aside. like i said. it sucks that i have rough fingers but i wouldn't give up strumming my baby just to get soft ones. :)

one good thing about this is that i am positive that I'm getting good at playing. good enough not to want to put my baby down once i start strumming. ^_^ i don't think I'd ever get sick of playing. ;)

latest song i can't stop playing? :) Walang Iba by Ezra Band. really easy to play :) teehee

wonder when I'd get a hold of a guitar t'day. i don't think i can wait till i get home.. LOL enihu! :)

Arrivaderci

mwah

Go Barbie Go! ;D

okay so. uber determined to learn. to 'level-up' as my 'mentor' says. teehee ^_^ which means i have to take everything my mentor says seriously and really do it.. huhuuuuu pwede ma scared? hahahaha but i am uber in-love w/ the thought of being as good at playing this the way 'professionals' play it.

go easy on me master. lol yes, i am serious about this but you should teach me the way you teach Beginners.. haha coz i'm still far from where you are now.. lol obvious?!

Don't be a Jerk

don't be like that. don't be like the others. sigh but if you choose to be i can't do anything about it. thats your call.your decision.your shot.your *****fckin' life. sucks though. why? cause i don't want you to be a Jerk. but you are -- BEING A JERK. haha exhausting trying to get a point out but not being able to. i hope you know what i mean. if you don't. well, whatever. wala na akong magagawa. i tried. i really freakin' did. thats why i hate it so...

oh. and i hate what your becoming now. not just a jerk. but something else as well. haha sabi pa nga nang friend ko. "i talk the talk. but i don't actually walk the walk"

It's Not

"it's a choice man diba kung mag love ta."

i don't agree. you can't choose to love or not to love a person. it just happens. the choice there is whether you acknowledge the fact that you're in-love or you choose to ignore it.

i know many who've tried not to love the person they love. and it really can't be done. ignore the person, avoid the person, "forget" the person, heck. HATE the person even. you can do whatever it is that you think can change how you feel towards that person.

but you KNOW deep inside that whatever you try to do. you will always have those feelings. those "strong" emotions would always be there. :P


ok i'm done. (well not really but i'm late so my mind is now distracted) but i'm sure i've made my point. :)

The Filipino Soldier

morning people! random yet inspiring post coming at ya. :)

i thought of posting this cause while i was singing I'll Be by Edwin McCain i remembered how back in high school whenever i sang this song, i always got the chorus part wrong. cause instead to shoulder i would always say soldier. teehee

♫ i'll be your crying soldieeeeerrr ♫

 LMAO! ^_^

enihu, so because of the word soldier, i remembered my old oratorical piece. t'was really short but the meaning is great. here are the parts that i can still remember. :))

The Filipino Soldier

"If you fix your eyes upon the pages of history, you will come across the name of the soldier. His vocation is fraught with the splendor of nobility. He has no parallel in the annals of human achievements. Monuments, have been erected to his memory to perpetuate in the hearts of grateful nations a noble legacy.

History hardly records his valiant deeds in the fields of battle. The world knew little of his suffering before the cruel miasma of death. He is the fruition of the prayer of a race once shrouded in the gloom of martyrdom. He is the incarnation of a nation's ideal suppressed for eternity. 

He does not have the selfish ambition of Julius Caesar. He does not have the lust power of Alexander the Great. He does not have the imperial greed of Napoleon Bonaparte. He rises, radiant and resplendent, blessed by holy cause and holding high the Torch of Liberty.

He is the hero who stands for freedom. He know his responsibilities to his country and to his God."

A Message to . .

YOU..

hey you! yes, you. what happened? i don't really have much to tell, just that I'm honestly curious as to what came into your mind when you started being like this. of all people. you should know that you can tell me anything. :)) seriously. you've been doing it since before. why change it now? haha

and don't worry. if it's about that, i completely understand. :)) okay? i won't be offended of anything. i just want to hear it from you. then whatever it is. I'm sure I'll get it :) ako pah? the ever so uber understanding. *wink*

I'll be expecting. :)) so don't be shy. hihi won't be awkward. para dili kaayo lisod sa imu.

Arrivaderci

^^,

Why i ♥ Damon

WHY do i love Damon so much? watch the clip. oh and just to warn the HR's (Hopeless Romantic's), this video will have a million effects on you.. teehee but really at some point it warms your heart. but for the most part of it, well, it broke mine. sighs

Damon: Cute pj's.
Elena: I'm tired, Damon.

Damon: I brought you this (holds up Elena's vervain necklace)

Elena: I thought that was gone. Thank you. Please give it back.

Damon: I just have to say something—

Elena: Why do you have to say it with my necklace?

Damon: Because what I'm about to say is probably the most selfish thing I've ever said in my life.

Elena: Damon, don't go there.

Damon: I just have to say it once—you just need to hear it. I love you, Elena... and it's because I love you ...I can't be selfish with you. Why you can't know this—I don't deserve you. But my brother does... God, I wish you didn't have to forget this (tear falls) ...but you do.

 *sob* *sob* *sob*

my heart breaks and i tear up every single time! :((

you can see how much Damon ♥'s Elena. he loves her so much and it's heart breaking to see him sacrifice and  keep his love because he loves his brother too. and that he knows Elena would choose Stefan over him. huuu  i feel for the guy. i mean thinking he doesn't deserve her. T_T

at one point i was really pissed off at Damon for not fighting for her love. for not trying to fight for Elena. i seriously kept screaming "Die Stefan" cause it just seemed to me that it was him who's getting in the way of those two. i just didn't get why he didn't make all his efforts for her. then i realized that he's also protecting himself. trying to spare himself of the pain of being rejected will bring. *sigh*

it's guys in flicks like these that make you believe, or more like want to believe that there are still men out there who are like this.