it was only a few days ago when i noticed that I've developed this some kind of habit or mannerism of some sort where i "leave" the real world for a minute or two. you would know that i was doing what i was doing cause my face would look blank or like i'm staring into space or something.
i have no idea when this started but i do this "quirk" more often these past few weeks. i know when i'm doing it cause i have tons of things in mind. other times it happens and my mind goes blank. it's really unnerving at times since i don't really know what i'm thinking. i mean i don't have any thought in particular whenever that happens.
this little fact isn't really a big deal. i don't really care much about it. but lately i keep hearing that i look sad, i hardly smile, i look like i'm about to cry, teary eyed and etc. thats what bothers me. i don't want to come across as a lonely person. i want people to see m as a wacky, crazy, kooky nut that makes people laugh. not makes people sad..
*sigh* what to do, what to do *sigh*
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