. . Still Thank You guys

on a B-R-I-G-H-T-E-R note!

despite the mood mayhem. this day was GREAT! met TONS of new people! and YES. a couple of those i now consider friends! :)) huggy to those said people! :) of course special mention to Lianne who was my buddy along w/ Clint.during the trip. :) also to the group of truly fun dudes who we got to hang out w. ;)

truly a F-U-N experience. :)) BV's aside.. hahaha *wink* i sincerely hope to hang w/ you guys again soon! :)) 

CHIPS-BOAT-CHIKKA-SAGGING-CARDS-BOTTLE-MIC-BEEVEE'S-FUN

M•I•X•E•D.E•M•O•T•I•O•N•S

huggies

S.T.F.U

i don't care what you think. in fact. i don't really care what ANY of you think of me. bakit? kay i know what i'm doing. i know what possible reactions, judgments, accusations and condemnations are there in exchange for acting such a way. ALAM KO YON! OO, i know! di naman kasi ako tanga. at sige, maging redundant na tayo. I'm Not Stupid. Di Ako Tanga. Dili ko Bugok!

i know people can't help but judge. i know kay i myself do that. SO. it means na AWARE ako that i may and will be judged with what i am, was & WILL BE doing.. capice? i know your appalled by the thought of me still doing things which may get me judged and criticized by other people. but thats cause I DON'T CARE what any of you think. long as i know i'm not doing anything wrong.


kaya wag nyong ipag pilitan na tama kayo at ako ang mali kay i chose to be that way. thats how i chose to look at things. and i don't give a friggin' damn what anyone thinks. how sweet of you naman kasi na you would be oh-so affected by the gesture. so f*cking sweet that you were even more affected than me!?! imagine that?! haha but sige. given na   *mocking* "i was wrong" *mocking* THAT WASN'T THE POINT!!!


at kung hindi ka ba naman pinanganak na nuknukan nang sang-katutak na katangahan YOU WOULD GET THAT! i didn't care about what you "thought" (wala akong paki sa opinion mo). i also don't care if in anong condition ka nun o what. kay YOU HAD NO RIGHT. again, NO RIGHT, to talk to me that way. wala koy paki sa 'point' na imung gina palabas kay FYI? i understood it completely! it was the way you delivered it na kaloko kaayo. puhtek. mura kag naka sturya ug batang walay buot what with the way you spoke eh. parang all high and mighty ka kung umasta.. tsk tsk tsk


enihu. whats done is done. but of course i'm not a saint to forgive and much more forget that easily. i don't take things like that lightly. so if your sensitive enough. alam mo na.. okay?! still. the "concern" is still in mind. 

Time to Go Crazy

Deep Breath. . . . *phew*

okay so this week alone i am fully booked.

• Recollection (Re-ed)
• Report (Re-ed)
• Hand-out (Health)
• Follow-up Guests (MC)
• Look For Outfit (MC)
• Set-Up (MC)
• Field Trip (NS)
• Short Story (Eng)
• Oratorical Piece (Eng)
• H-W (NS)
• Usherette Duties (MC)
• Technical Duties (MC)
• Anniv?

hahaha this is going to be F-U-N! 

Free Hugs

Hey guys! so it's currently 2:33am on my clock and yet i am still wide awake. started dozing off when i came up w/ a perfect Valentines Day treat! w/c is what's indicated on the image above. :) sooo happy! :)

HUUUUUGS!

Minimal Efforts in Vain

not to rain on you guys' parade or anything? i mean the thought of the cause your trying to achieve is sort of appreciated. but if you guys really want to make an impact. don't do this on a day where it's actually allowed or permitted to wear anything freely (okay dami din restrictions w/ our dress-code w/c i think is OA but you guys know what i mean lmao) then you really aren't making a statement. trust me when i say IT WILL NOT MAKE A DIFFERENCE.

if you really want to make a statement? you really want to be heard? you actually want to get their attention? guys. you should know what to do!

do these efforts on regular days. non-wash-days. you get what I'm trying to say?! the only way they'll know your serious is if it makes an impact, ergo, it actually requires effort & sacrifice! think about it. try to picture it out. you do your plan on a Monday or any other day of the week where your required to wear your uniforms and show up w/ that. here.

NO UNIFORM -> NO ENTRY -> YOU STAY OUTSIDE -> MORE OF YOU SHOW UP -> SAME PROCESS = GETTING THEIR ATTENTION.

see my point?

pero guys, seriously. isipin nyo pa gud. is it really worth it? anjan na eh. it will happen. it's not just 'proposed' anymore kay it will very soon be regulated . so kahit anong gawin pa natin to try to change their minds. it wont make any difference. you'll be heard YES. pero hanggang dun lang. walang action na mangyayari. at least not the one you want to happen. hindi yung goal na you want to achieve. di naman din kasi tayo mga aktibista. we'd look like fools trying to change something thats final.

again. the thought of the cause is good. its touching or whatever. but it's there. it's done. it's FINAL. i know settler masyado ang labas ko nito and i admit i am settling. but it's only because this is a LOST CAUSE. it won't change. only thing we CAN do is accept it and try to cope w/ this change. 

teehee. BOW

(BTW: this is posted on both my Tumblr & here)

Arrivaderci

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(EDITED 11:16am)


will be posting a follow-up of this.. 

Leap?

should i?

tagal2x  na rin na I've been keeping my guards up. tagal na since i last opened myself up completely and let someone in my life w/o being cautious. thats cause last time i did so was about 6 yrs ago. 6 very long years of not letting someone get too near me w/o me trying to push them away, or if not. build a wall or make things clear that i don't want anything like 'that' to develop.

as for the reason to why i did that. . well, honestly i don't know anymore. all i know is that for years this has been my intuitive reaction once i feel something brewing w/ s certain someone. (no wonder! lmao)

so point is. should i? i mean should i give someone a pass? sometimes i feel like i should. and just as i'm about to. i close off again.